Feelings ruin you. They cloud your judgement, they make you irrational, they make you vulnerable and crazy. I don’t want to get close to a guy.. I don’t need those feelings. I don’t need to worry about another persons feelings for me. I don’t need to worry about making relationships work right now. So why am I putting myself in these situations that potentially set me up for these relationships? I don’t know.. I’m stupid I guess. I don’t need another heartbreak on my list. I refuse to put myself through the pain again. I’m not ready.