*flicks holy water on you* leave
I was going through my blog archive from 2012. The second half of 2012 was really hard for me. I had my heart broken, my world completely shattered. It’s like somebody pulled the rug from underneath my feet. Everything in my life changed in what feels like a second. (technically it was like a week) Anyway, I was so broken. I was sad. I lost who I was. But maybe that’s what was supposed to happen. In fact, I know it was. I know it seems like I talk about love and heartbreak a lot — which I do, but it’s because getting my heart broken was the most significant thing to happen in my life thus far. I may not have ended up with the boy, but I got so much more than that. I lost myself, but what I gained was more self awareness than I’ve ever had. I found my passion in life, I found what I find acceptable in relationships, I found me. And you don’t know how amazing it feels to feel whole. I’m happy again. I’m genuinely happy. Reading all those old blog posts about how sad I was also made me realize, maybe I am ready to fall in love again. Maybe I am ready to step out and put myself out there and become available. Or maybe not.. I don’t know. But what I do know is that I’ve found happiness in myself, and I’m ready to share that with somebody else, however long it could take to find that person.
I love Fall Out Boy because sometimes they have some really great lyrics like
But then other times they have really relatable lyrics
and there’s angry lyrics too
Like there’s a song for every mood
Well fuckin duh, it’s Fall Out Boy.